Monday, July 6, 2009

leaves.

wind up your body
gather courage, save strength

for you are stronger than you believe

and you never believe

block out your weakness, persevere

these are things that you fear

be brave, and you will find hope

return home triumphant

a hero


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i rest my sadness in the sky portion of your eyes

and to my surprise

your face never departs from my mind

or from my moving time


you stand near and kiss my cheek when i go numb

these will be the days we miss when we get old


oh, how it goes on


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my hands will be worn,

my face dark.

my eyes will be older

when i return.

will you still know me?

will you stand close at all?

i will be the same man.

i will be the same.

but i won't look so young and bright anymore.


everything counts

side with me, get on my team.


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i can build myself with words.

on paper, we can be birds.

constantly creating history.

the future will prove i was rare.

artists will disintegrate,

i will evaporate

unless i stay absent from the world.

i can say great things but not be them.

i can describe beauty but not be it.

i will think nice thoughts,

and let happiness exist as a breeze

through my mind

that is fuelled by my heart

and is destroyed upon contact

with the air.


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four portions of you,

and i go headfirst.

heart follows... clearance.

give off love like the surf.


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she is my invested gold

buried in the hills.

my heart goes with her wherever she goes.

she is me.

my head jumps in time unwillingly,

surviving by its own design.

back and forth, i burn.

she is a beacon of light,

in a storm never-ending,

in a story ever-bending.

in my own troubled mess,

the clouds only part for her,

they swallow us together,

entwined and laughing.


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i slide into the dark room, trying not to wake her. the air is thick, the summer sweat that i have been missing. i crawl under the blankets behind her, hold her tight. she feels my beard on her neck when i kiss her and says, "stay awhile."


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green shirt

black shirt

i wear my insides outside

i wear my start on my sleeve

let's get hurt


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the night can't hold me and all of my dreaming.

i am too large for this planet.

i let go of the earth and wind,

put effort towards oblivion.


our language doesn't suffice,

words i need don't exist.

every day is plain white rice,

i can't eat this,

not anymore.


the day can't hold me.

with all of our contrived counting.

i am too large for hours,

minutes.

i won't run out any longer.


i put effort towards forgetting,

in my own way getting stronger.


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if you rain on me

i will rain on you


if you let yourself get wet

i will dry you off

i promise


i am standing there

with a towel for you

smile


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i can't describe what grows inside of me

just like i can't explain what hurts

i feel as though i'm evolving backwards

like my time machine is stuck in reverse

if i land by you then take me to your leader

and we will discuss just how i will save us

we'll examine the biggest picture.


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we are nothing when we wake

our ghosts all gone to the corners

to hide and plan for the day

asleep i am strong and never wrong

this life bores me in the light

it ignores me


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we are gusts.
we are gone.
these are notes.
this is tomorrow.
harbouring this clumsy happiness.
leaves.